Shortly after former Miss USA Cheslie Kryst‘s cause of death was confirmed, her mother, April Simpkins, released a statement saying she has “forever changed.” 

Kryst, Miss USA 2019, and

a correspondent for the television show “Extra,” died after jumping from a New York City high-rise on Sunday. She was 30. On Wednesday, the New York City Office of Chief Medical Examiner ruled her death as suicide. 

“I have never known a pain as deep as this. I am forever changed. Today, what our family and friends privately knew was the cause of death of my sweet baby girl, Cheslie, was officially confirmed. While it may be hard to believe, it’s true,” Simpkins wrote. 

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Simpkins said her daughter hid her depression from everyone. 

“Cheslie led both a public and a private life. In her private life, she was dealing with high-functioning depression which she hid from everyone — including me, her closest confidant — until very shortly before her death,” she wrote. 

“While her life on this earth was short. it was filled with many beautiful memories. We miss her laugh, her words of wisdom, her sense of humor and mostly her hugs. We miss all of it — we miss all of her. She was a vital part of our family which makes this loss even more devastating,” she added.

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Addressing her late daughter directly, she wrote, “Cheslie — to the world, you were a ball of sunshine wrapped in smiles. We talked, FaceTimed or texted one another all day, every day. You were more than a daughter — you were my very best friend. Talking with you was one of the best parts of my day. Your smile and laugh were infectious.”

“I love you baby girl with all my heart. I miss you desperately. I know one day we’ll be together again. Until then, rest easy and in peace,” Simpkins concluded.