Ever
since actor-producer Priyanka Chopra Jonas’ memoir ‘Unfinished’ released and striked homes,
the world wakes up to one or the other revelation from her personal and
professional life. This time the actor weighed on the impact of her father’s
death, what she dubs as a gray period of her life, on her mental health and how
she never really dealt with the grief of this immense loss.

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The 38-year old actor revealed that she struggled with a period of mental depression after her father’s demise, that lasted for around five years, and then she made a conscious call to move on from the unforgettable sorrow, the process she describes as the movement from “a world of gray back into a world of vibrant color”.

Chopra
Jonas
said in Unfinished that she committed herself to work and used it as a therapy. The actor did so by completely immersing her grief and “a piece of her soul” into her sports drama movie “Mary Kom”, which released in 2014.

For those unversed, Priyanka’s father Dr
Ashok Chopra, a physician in the Indian Army, died on June 10, 2013, died at the age of 62 following a
long battle with cancer.

Priyanka revealed that she began shooting for the film five days after her father died despite producer Sanjay Leela Bhansali offer to postpone the project.

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“Five
days after Dad died, the day following my father’s chautha, ‘Mary Kom’ was
scheduled to begin shooting, and although the film’s producer, Sanjay Leela
Bhansali, offered to postpone the start date, the sense of duty and discipline
I’d inherited from my father and his twenty-seven years in the military
wouldn’t allow me to accept his offer,” wrote Priyanka.

The Quantico actor further disclosed that she did not know any better way to deal with pain than to push it deep under work and tried several therapies on her mother’s recommendation but never found one who was right for her.

“Beyond those few conversations with my family, though, I never
really examined or dealt with my grief. Instead, I tried to power through. I
was doing my best to be resilient, but the fact is that I was burying my grief
rather than coming to terms with it.” Priyanka wrote

Explaining what prompted her to finally leave the past and sorrows attached behind, Priyanka wrote ,”I
didn’t know exactly how to move on but one day I figured out one simple thing, I could do: I could
stop hiding and reengage with life.

Bollywood actor Hritik Roshan also found a vivid mention in Unfinished, where the author Priyanka described how her ‘Krrish’ co-star in 2005-06  used his connections at Air India to arrange for her father’s immediate flight to London from where he was transferred onto a flight to New York for further treatment at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center in Boston.

Actor Priyanka Chopra Jonas’ memoir ‘Unfinished’ was released on February and it takes readers through her journey to stardom and her life before becoming an actor.