Pop star Britney Spears is looking forward to heading into the New Year with a fresh perspective. In a lengthy Instagram post on Monday, the “…Baby One More Time” singer, 40, once again spoke about her painful past, her family, and how reflecting on her career accomplishments helped her to focus on good things.

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“I had an experience three years ago where I stopped believing in God,” Spears wrote in part. “From every angle I was being hurt for no reason and my family was hurting me. I went into a state of shock and the way I coped was being (in) fake denial. It was too much to really face.”

“Honestly my family embarrassed me and hurt me deeply,” Spears wrote, adding that “tooting my own horn and seeing my past accomplishments reflecting back at me actually helped” in overcoming her insecurities.

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“Last year was growth for me… I still have a ways to go!!!” the “Gimme More” singer wrote on a separate slide.

“My goal this year is to push myself a bit more and do things that scare me,” she continued. “We are just people and I’m not superwoman but I do know what makes me happy and brings me joy and I try to meditate on those places and thoughts that enable me to experience it.”

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Last week, Spears called out her family for the way they treated her and wrote about having to be her own cheerleader throughout her music career. In the post’s caption, she reminded herself of all she’s accomplished after more than two decades in the music business.