Billie Eilish admitted that watching pornography from the age 11 destroyed her brain. The Grammy-winning singer in her ballad ‘Male Fantasy’ on album ‘Happier Than Ever’ sings about being home alone and distracting herself with porn. 

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Released on December 6, ‘Male Fantasy’ is the sixteenth and final track from Billie Eilish’s second studio album. Talking on ‘The Howard Stern Show’ on Sirius XM radio on Monday, the ‘Bad Guy’ singer admitted that she described porn as a disgrace and added that it gave her nightmares and messed her up when she started dating.

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“I think porn is a disgrace. I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was, like, 11,” the “Bad Guy” singer said, saying it helped her feel as if she were cool and ‘one of the guys’,” Eilish, who turns 20 on Saturday said. 

“I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn,” she added. 

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Billie Eilish was homeschooled in Los Angeles.

“The first few times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good. It was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to,” she said.

The singer became the youngest person in history to win all four of the top Grammy Awards in the same year. She won the new artist, album, record and song of the year in 2020 at age 18.

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“It’s really hard to meet people when, you know, people are either terrified of you or think you’re out of their league,” Eilish said. 

The 19-year-old further revealed that COVID-19 might have killed her had she not been vaccinated.

“I didn’t die and I wasn’t going to die but that doesn’t take away from how miserable I was. I mean it was terrible,” she said.

 “I want it to be clear that it’s because of the vaccine that I’m fine. I think if I weren’t vaccinated I would have like died because it was bad.”