Saudi trans woman Eden Knight reportedly died by suicide leaving behind a scheduled death note on Twitlonger. The note said that before the public read her message, she will already be dead.
“If you’re reading this, I’ve already k*lled myself. I have given life every opportunity, I have given myself every chance to get better. But I couldn’t do it, I wasn’t strong enough, I don’t think there was a universe where I was ever strong enough to survive this.”
Who was Eden Knight?
Eden Knight reportedly attended an American high school in the suburbs of Washington DC and an international school in Riyadh. After that, she was admitted to George Mason University to study computer science. Knight’s international scholarship ran out before she could graduate. This led to the expiration of her visa.
Knight was reportedly “terrified” of being deported back to Saudi Arabia and hoped to claim asylum in the US.
She claimed that till last year she was living in the United States. Only after being sent back to Saudi Arabia, being denied hormone medication, and forced to “de-transition,” she made up her mind to kill herself. Knight dubbed her parents as “strict conservative Muslims.” She also claimed that they hired “fixers” who promised to solve the tension between her and her parents. “I genuinely was optimistic and believed this could work,” she said.
However, Knight soon lost touch with them and she alleged that the lawyer started coercing her into de-transition. “He tried to get me to be ‘normal.’ Gave me examples of feminine men and said that they are transgender but they are hiding it, that it’s better to hide it. Told me stories personally about people he knew that successfully hid it.” she wrote.
She eventually gave in and started to follow orders. “I did everything he asked, I cut my hair, I stopped taking estrogen, I changed my wardrobe, I met my dad. And then I had another breakdown. My mom kept telling me to repent or I was going to hell, and I did, I repented,” she said.
Her own mother berated her as a “freak” after they found her private photos. Her father called her “a failure and an abomination.” Her real trauma began after her family found her HRT. She was forced to take a month off the hormone medication when they also found it for the second time. When the family found her HRT for the third time, the young trans woman shared that she was “done fighting. She refused to live if she could not transition.
She has been taking HRT since 2022. The medication reportedly improved her mental health. Her friends described her as a “light in the trans community.”
She had become something of an LGBTQ icon on social media as she garnered over 20,000 followers on Twitter.