Singer Selena Gomez opened up about her mental health struggles in the past in her recent Rolling Stone cover story. She talked in detail about how she entered four different treatment facilities since her early 20s and spent a few years contemplating suicide as well. 

“I’m going to be very open with everybody about this: I’ve been to four treatment centers. I think when I started hitting my early 20s is when it started to get really dark when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad,” the singer talked about her struggles. 

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“I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there,” Gomez talked about how she contemplated suicide as well. 

Gomez also said that her mental illness escalated due to her artistic struggle, as she tried to disassociate from her Disney channel identity and flourish as a mature singer. 

“I grew up thinking I would be married at 25,” Gomez said. “It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that — couldn’t be farther from it. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over. I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor [Swift], so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong. I felt the presence of everyone around me living full lives. I had this position, and I was really happy, but… was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy? I just didn’t like who I was, because I didn’t know who I was.”

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Gomez suffered from psychosis in 2018. As she found herself slowly “walking out of psychosis,” as she puts it, she was diagnosed with bipolar disease, for which she was prescribed medication. She said it had a negative effect on her. “It was just that I was gone. There was no part of me that was there anymore,” she said. 

She eventually contacted a psychiatrist, who guided her through her illness and put her off certain medications, which consequently made Gomez feel better. 

 “But I had to detox, essentially, from the medications I was on. I had to learn how to remember certain words. I would forget where I was when we were talking. It took a lot of hard work for me to (a) accept that I was bipolar, but (b) learn how to deal with it, because it wasn’t going to go away,” she told Rolling Stone. 

Gomez talks in detail about her struggle with her mental illness in upcoming Apple documentary Selena Gomez: My Mind and Me, which will be available for streaming on 4 November, 2022.